Thursday, December 30, 2004
......................... ; 3:55 PM
Umm. Nothing new
I thought you should know that.
Love always,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Dane Cook, BK Lounge
Weapon of choice: Flu Virus
Monday, December 27, 2004
Today ; 8:39 PM
So...Today...Woke up at like noon, called Dave. Cleaned, then went to the Guthrie's, gave Brian his Christmas gift. Picked up Dave, then went to the mall. Got my "corset" top, and Zach's b-day/x-mas gift.
Watched the Labyrinth, with David Bowie's package...hehe, watched Mean Girls with Lindsay Lohan's huge knockers. then went out.
Briefly yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: none [again]
Weapon of choice: Corset...hehe...pirates...LOL!
why? ; 1:58 AM
Goddamnit. This is my undoing. I'm sick of being so tired all the time. Because in being tired, I grow very irritable. And in turn I snap on my friends, and the ones I love. I should just give up shouldn't I?
What is the point?
I don't know why I even go on.
Why?
LOL JESUS LOL ; 1:39 AM
So today, as in Sunday, was Uncle George's birthday. We went out, and had a merry ol' time. Then I went to Zach's and watched the Exorcist with Jenna, Zach, Megan, Eric, Katie, and I think Katie. Had a very blasphemic (sp?) conversation about Jesus and crucifixes...haha...lol
MMM...jesus pleases me...lol katie lol
Humblely yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: None
Weapon of choice: make up
Saturday, December 25, 2004
A merry christmas post ; 10:38 AM
OMG OMG OMG....Christmas, lol LOL.
Marilyn Manson, Lest We Forget
The Used, In Love and Death
AFI, The Art of Drowning
AFI, Very Proud of Ya
Car Cd Case Visor Thing
Litter Bag for me car
Nail Stuff
Body Spray (someone might be trying to tell me something)
Candle holder sconce things (tres)
Candles (cinco)
Underwear...yay!
Johnny Depp/Jack Sparrow Shirt....HOTT!!!!!
Club Top
Shawl thingy
DVD player
Lord of the Rings trilogy box set
Underworld
Edward Scissorhands
Aladdin, SE
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
..........................last........................but not least...........................................................................................
The Labyrinth!!!!
Great story behind why it's so great and weird why I think it's so great...ask me sometime. I might tell you
Merry Christmas to all, and too all a good night!...lol...its almost 11 in the AM
Lovingly yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: The Used, Take it Away
Weapon of choice: Tinsel, bitches
Friday, December 24, 2004
Work............[ .ugh. ] ; 3:38 PM
So... I worked last night at 9. p.m. obviously. I was supposed to get off at one. needless to say I got off late. 5 hours late. 6 a.m. baby. God damn. It was hell. But I'll survive. I woke up at around 2 in the afternoon today, and I've got work again in about an hour. Fuck man. I do too much, and for what? It's all in vain mostly. No one notices what I do. UGH. I helped Gina serve the entire restaurant. Just her and me. Good money though. So I'm not really complaining, too much.
Exausted.
Sunshine
Poison of choice: MM, mOBSCENE
Weapon of choice: Air...haha..toxic air.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
I don't want this anymore. ; 8:08 PM
What do you do when you care about something with every fiber of your being but it's all in vain?
God.
I.
Love.
Him.
But I don't want to anymore. I want it to be over. I want the feelings gone. I want to rip out his heart and show him what it's like to love someone and not have them return the feelings in a good way. I want him to know what it's like to watch that person be so happy but know that you are not the cause of it. I want him to feel what I have felt for nearly a year. I want him to know what it is like to go up so high only to be brought crashing down. Hard. I want him to know what it's like to feel the way I do. But he never will. He will never understand. He will never know what it's like to feel that way.
He.
Will.
Never.
Know.
Hopelessly yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: H.I.M., Resurrection
Weapon of choice: broken glass
movie time ; 1:37 PM
Bleh. I woke up like only 20 minutes ago. and I have work in approximately 7 and one half hours. Hurray! not. fduuuhhh haha, I like it with the [f]. [ .meniacle laugh. ] Movie Time! YEAHA!!!!
awesomeness,
Sunshine
Poison of Choice: My Chemical Romance, Our Lady of Sorrows
Weapon of Choice: Cat-o-ninetails [don't give a damn if thats the wrong spelling.]
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
White Houses [my current favorite song...yay] ; 10:30 PM
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late and I'm too thin
We promise eachother it's till the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles it's the five of usWith pretty-eyed boys girls die to trustI can't resist the day, no I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
When she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
Summer's all in bloom, summer's ending soon
It's alright, and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold onto secrets, In white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my headI come undone at the things he saidHe's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seats
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy we're going way too fast, it's all to sweet to last
It's alright and I put myself in his hands
But I hold onto secrets, In white houses
Love or something ignites in my veinsAnd I prey it never ends, In white houses
My first time, hard to explain rush of blood
And a little bit of pain, on a cloudy day
It's more common than you think,
he's my first mistakeMaybe you were all faster than me
We gave eachother up so easily
Silly little wounds will never mendI feel so far from where I've beenSo I go and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading, On white houses
I lied, Wrote my injuries all in the dust
In my heart it's the five of us, In white houses
And you, Maybe you'll remember me
What I gave it is yours to keep,
In white houses
the Old.... and ....the New ; 7:49 PM
Gee, how I wish I knew how to make a template for my blog. It would be so swell. I think I will just download a new one today. I've grown bored with this one already. I will save it though. Just in case one day I decide hey, I miss that old template with the skull and cross bones with the heart beneath it. But for now. Just for now. I will be putting on a new one...unless you are looking at this after it's on then I will be using this one.
Restless,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Vanessa Carlton, San Francisco
Weapon of choice: Glitter [feel my wrath]
The heart is returning ; 4:04 PM
So for some reason I can't go out today. It might have to do with the fact I forgot to change the catbox...but did my mom really look? or is she just assuming? I don't know. Whatever. I guess hanging out with Tommy will have to wait [damnit]. ummm... yea. I changed the catbox just now. I hate doing that. It makes me nauseous, but so does cleaning up dog shit.
It's about quarter after 4, and my mom is going to work out tonight, which means she wont be home till about 6ish, so I don't see why it makes a difference if I'm home or not. Plus I'm staying home tomorrow evening because I have to work at 9 p.m. and then I'll be home all day Friday because I have work at 4:30 p.m. and then Saturday is Christmas, so that makes about 3 days in a row that I will be home, AND Sunday I bet I'll be home because I'm sure something is going down for Uncle George's birthday. That makes 4 days. Well when mom gets home I might bring that up, 'cause I don't really want to wait another week to see Tommy.
New Year's plans are beginning to form. YAY! I think I will be spending it with Zach. And I might stay overnight at his house. Fun Fun. 'Cause I can stay with Jenna. ::wink wink:: LOL.
Mischievously yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Vanessa Carlton, Private Radio
Weapon of choice: Glass beads
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
blah ; 6:05 PM
So my day consisted of next to nothing. Stayed home. Stopped at the Guthrie's for about an hour. Got yelled at to go home by my mom. Got yelled at some more after that. Then I got my tires fixed. Which in doing so consisted of me spending the last of my money from Sunday. So I am broke until Friday morning at 1. Then I will be $20 poorer than I will have been at 1 a.m. because I have to pay Mirek back for my tire.
[.::.Fuck.::.]
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Vanessa Carlton, Annie
Weapon of choice: an angel's tears
Yesterday in a nutshell or whatever... ; 1:18 PM
I feel so cold. My room is always so cold. Umm...yesterday...
Went to the mall with Joe.
Went to hang out with Brian for most of the rest of the day.
Then I hung out with Zach until it was time to go home.
Probably the
best part of the day was hanging out with Brian. He is really easy to talk to and such. I like being able to talk to him about my issues with Will. It's easy to talk to Bri about it because he's Will's brother. So yea... Brian has definitely become a decently good friend of mine, and I'm happy for that. He's brutally honest. (more so than I am.)
Today I am supposed to hang out with Tommy. I'm waiting for him to call or whatever. I called him twice so far.... So I hope he calls back. (and soon! LOL)
Well there's not really much else to talk about today.
Harmoniously yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Vanessa Carlton, Who's To Say
Weapon of Choice: Pencils and glue.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
; 8:09 PM
ahhh, eye....I LOVE IT!
; 1:28 AM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
; 4:17 PM
another shot at the perspective thing, this time with lyrics, courtesy of My Dying Bride, She is the Dark.
Killer ; 3:50 PM
Talon meeting tomorrow. Work tonight. Death should come swiftly and silently to [anon.] That's all I have to say.
Killer like,
Sunshine
Poison of Choice: MM, Tourniquet
Weapon of Choice: Arsenic
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
; 10:44 PM
this just looks cool
; 10:32 PM
perspective thingy, I couldn't think of what to write so I just used my name
Monday, December 13, 2004
; 9:46 PM
angel wings and such
The downfall of caring ; 8:39 PM
ARG!...
I think I might worry too much about how something I do will affect other people, rather than how it will ultimately make me feel.
This could be something bad at times, but good too. I haven't decided yet, I'll get back to you on that...
Lovingly yours,
Sunshine
Posion of choice: nothing
Weapon of choice: [who cares anymore?]
Sunday, December 12, 2004
; 10:42 PM
this is so cool, its not the final one i made tho,...well it might be, whatever
k!ll3r like ; 10:12 PM
Omg....bipolar...lol...lol.
My window is sort of broke. Condensation and cold air.
"There's a woman in the mirror in a firey state, she motions to me, I start pullin' away..."
The launch player is being slow.
I left my Chex at work. *tear and such* Speaking of work, it sux, as always. WHOOO! I made $11 today. Bleh.
I can't really feel my feet, they are awefully cold.
I think I might be attractive. Guys tend to like me lately. Weird like.
Sexily yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Secret Machines, Nowhere Again
Weapon of choice: Hair Gel
MMMM....mmm ; 1:17 AM
So, it has been a while since my last update, my life is decently boring.
Umm...I still really really really..................................really like David.
I still like that one other guy.
Still in love with Will, but unsure on whether I want to date him.
Tonight I hung out with 3 guys I met at my work. Went to Around the Clock and ate and talked, got the "I think you've been here too long" look from the manager numerous times. Then when we paid we got the "it's about damn time" look from the same guy. Very good serious conversations we held. Then we played billard's at Chris's house (Mike, Garret and Chris are their names). Mike and I won. Then here I am now, about to go down stairs and get some Ho Ho's...mmmmm, chocolatey mallow goodness....
Deliciously yours,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: T.V.
Weapon of choice: My left pinkie
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Words quietly uttered by Sunshine, the moderately confused girl ; 3:38 PM
..........................
I think I'm falling in love
..........................
Utterly confused,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Against Me!, Turn those clapping hands into angry balled fists
Weapon of choice: the Cents on my desk [you wouldn't understand even if you tried]
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
; 8:59 PM
Guess who's back???
....nothing to write, just thought I would tell you that.
Love Always,
Sunshine
Poison of choice: Flogging Molly, The Likes of You Again
Weapon of choice: candle stick
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Death By Seat Belt!!! WHEE HEE! ; 6:59 PM
So I've been grounded. I still am. Currently I am sick. David came home for a little bit, then left for college on Sunday. He will be back again like the 18th or something. Work is decently good. Ummm.... yea... Madrigal Dinner Saturday at 1ish. Possibly Zero Gravity if I can get ungrounded. Other than that nothing new.
Sickeningly yours,
Sunshine
P.S. My mom is singing...::Sigh Like::
Poison of Choice: Reality Show Theme
Weapon of Choice: the seat belt in my car
